Hi my little bloggie, long time no see. Kan dah bgtau, entah brp bulan baru nak update. Time is one of the reasons, but the most valid and solid reason is that I have nothing to say, no ideas to write, and besides my laptop is still broke down and I couldn't manage to get it fix, not for now.
I've been distracting myself with tons of work at the office, but then suddenly a place that should be distracting me from other complicated things in life now had became the main reason I feel a little bit emotional these days. Don't know why, but I guess I'm just tired, tired of all sorts of things, when you kinda like the things that you do you will put an expectations which you think everything will turn out well but then suddenly it don't, which will led you to dissapointment, and then there you go, another phase of crappy days in your life.
Easy to say "Put No Expectations, You Will Be Happy" but then people, how to avoid that? We live with expectations every single day, even the moment you open your eyes in the morning you already have all the expectations for the day that you're gonna get through lined up one by one in your mind, ready, its like a race between those expectations which of them is gonna win today, the bad one or the good one? Who knows.
Okay enough with that. I don't like to be too emotional, I tried my best to make sure words above are simple enough to describe what am I feeling right now, but not to ruin my weekend, at least not totally ruin it.
I'm still happy, just need a little time for myself. Anyway, have a great weekend!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Bit of Current Life Summary
As much as my friends can't wait to start their semester this upcoming september , I'm also can't wait to have them back here in this old-sorts-of-empty-house.
Syakir sent each one of us a raya card which is quite a suprised and it made my day after one exhausted working day.
I love working in my company and so far everything seems to turn out well, just the travelling part from Shah Alam to KLCC & KLCC to Shah Alam is a never ending battle for the past 2 months plus this month plus the next 4 months plus maybe if my manager would agree to extend my so called low cost services ( for me the amount is wow enough, though the $$$ is never enough to fulfill all your shopping desires) another 1 or 2 months kot, senang cerita selagi class tak start.
My senior or so called my not-so-official supervisor is cool, though I rarely open my mouth to speak but that just a matter of time. I just need more time. He's quite inspiring and he inspired me to be a better person which I'm currently trying to be. Don't you ever tell him I wrote this he just gonna be more riak nanti.
My manager & official supervisor plus the other staffs are all very nice person. I'm very lucky to have them.
My current goal is to do my best for my internship, my next goal is to complete my degree with a better CGPA & my next next goal is to further my studies in MBA at LSBF, ( the course still in considerations, but I know very well that I always interested in management rather than accounting). Money is always the problem, but will try to find some. Insyaallah.
I can't wait to go back & bukak puasa with my mom & shopping raya stuff with her, and taste her raya cookies. Never forgot abah, but he's just not into shopping, he'd prefer to drive us only and since now I can drive well he's definitely just stay at home sleeping or cleaning our house and wait for us to see what are the things that me & my mom bought for him. Senang, apa dibeli dia redha. So never in my whole life my mom & my dad had a discussions on the theme colour for our baju raya.
Thats all the updates now. Tunggu la sebulan dua lagi kot baru nak update. Thank you & Happy Fasting Month.
Not to forget, my #nowplaying:
Have a great weekend.
Syakir sent each one of us a raya card which is quite a suprised and it made my day after one exhausted working day.
I love working in my company and so far everything seems to turn out well, just the travelling part from Shah Alam to KLCC & KLCC to Shah Alam is a never ending battle for the past 2 months plus this month plus the next 4 months plus maybe if my manager would agree to extend my so called low cost services ( for me the amount is wow enough, though the $$$ is never enough to fulfill all your shopping desires) another 1 or 2 months kot, senang cerita selagi class tak start.
My senior or so called my not-so-official supervisor is cool, though I rarely open my mouth to speak but that just a matter of time. I just need more time. He's quite inspiring and he inspired me to be a better person which I'm currently trying to be. Don't you ever tell him I wrote this he just gonna be more riak nanti.
My manager & official supervisor plus the other staffs are all very nice person. I'm very lucky to have them.
My current goal is to do my best for my internship, my next goal is to complete my degree with a better CGPA & my next next goal is to further my studies in MBA at LSBF, ( the course still in considerations, but I know very well that I always interested in management rather than accounting). Money is always the problem, but will try to find some. Insyaallah.
I can't wait to go back & bukak puasa with my mom & shopping raya stuff with her, and taste her raya cookies. Never forgot abah, but he's just not into shopping, he'd prefer to drive us only and since now I can drive well he's definitely just stay at home sleeping or cleaning our house and wait for us to see what are the things that me & my mom bought for him. Senang, apa dibeli dia redha. So never in my whole life my mom & my dad had a discussions on the theme colour for our baju raya.
Thats all the updates now. Tunggu la sebulan dua lagi kot baru nak update. Thank you & Happy Fasting Month.
Not to forget, my #nowplaying:
Have a great weekend.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
The Road Between The Road Not Taken & Has Been Taken
Hi.
Along long time ago there was a kid who always wanted that he can grow so fast so that he can do what adults can do. He thinks being an adult is cool. He can't even wait to grow his moustache because he thinks that is one of the features to be more mature. He thinks having & driving a car with his girlfriend in the ride could be the coolest scene ever.
But now, he hates it. He hates it when after he reached his puberty the problems keep on coming one after another. It started with all sorts of personality issues and if yesterday he was a brave boy moving fast without any hesitations, now he tends to be afraid to make a move. He have to think a lot, of every consequences that he might have to get through for every decision he's gonna make, for every words that will coming out of his mouth and for every actions he undertakes in his daily life. He became so shy that he could not even speak a word out of his tiny mouth when he's among the people which he just met. He just monologue everything in his limited space of mind and not so big enough heart where if only one day he need to be operated, the doctor would see the scars and wounds that hurt him so much till' he don't believe in hope.
Although everytime when he needs to pull a strength he'd always hope for a miracle to be happen but at the same time he knows there will be nothing, nothing can't stop things from happening and he wondered why all sorts of good things is never longer than bad things. Plus minus the recovery process, where the parts he keep on motivating himself will all crappy monologue trying to not let him from falling apart.
At the end of the day all that he wants is just to play safe, he took a road where his heart will always on the safe side, the road where he can just go straight while looking through the glass walls right and left, and all that he could see are the things which he will never get the chance to feel nor taste it, and he could see all the choices and options he'd never dare to choose, while at the same time he dream of things that he always wanted to happen, a miracle, just like the people in the glass walls, for someday might be for him.
He realized he's hoping, again.
Along long time ago there was a kid who always wanted that he can grow so fast so that he can do what adults can do. He thinks being an adult is cool. He can't even wait to grow his moustache because he thinks that is one of the features to be more mature. He thinks having & driving a car with his girlfriend in the ride could be the coolest scene ever.
But now, he hates it. He hates it when after he reached his puberty the problems keep on coming one after another. It started with all sorts of personality issues and if yesterday he was a brave boy moving fast without any hesitations, now he tends to be afraid to make a move. He have to think a lot, of every consequences that he might have to get through for every decision he's gonna make, for every words that will coming out of his mouth and for every actions he undertakes in his daily life. He became so shy that he could not even speak a word out of his tiny mouth when he's among the people which he just met. He just monologue everything in his limited space of mind and not so big enough heart where if only one day he need to be operated, the doctor would see the scars and wounds that hurt him so much till' he don't believe in hope.
Although everytime when he needs to pull a strength he'd always hope for a miracle to be happen but at the same time he knows there will be nothing, nothing can't stop things from happening and he wondered why all sorts of good things is never longer than bad things. Plus minus the recovery process, where the parts he keep on motivating himself will all crappy monologue trying to not let him from falling apart.
At the end of the day all that he wants is just to play safe, he took a road where his heart will always on the safe side, the road where he can just go straight while looking through the glass walls right and left, and all that he could see are the things which he will never get the chance to feel nor taste it, and he could see all the choices and options he'd never dare to choose, while at the same time he dream of things that he always wanted to happen, a miracle, just like the people in the glass walls, for someday might be for him.
He realized he's hoping, again.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly.
Hi. Its weekend. and weehoo.
Lagu ni best. Best bagi I sebab I asyik dok repeat "You can be the peanut butter to my jelly" tu tak habis-habis kat semua benda yang I buat. Termasuk perumpamaan perumpamaan yang lain si Auburn ni sebut dlm lagu dia. Haha mmg tak ah nk nyanyi kat gf weh sebab tak special dah, aku nyanyi dah kat semua org.
Oh tak gf takda lagi. No worries nanti lagu lain lagi baru akan keluar jugak.
Anyway ni kelakar bila ada sorang komen kat bwh video ni kat youtube, dia tulis benda ni:
What happens when Peanut Butter cheats on Jelly with Nutella?
What happens when the Chills cheat on the first date with Halloween?
What happens when the Hero cheats on the Sidekick with the Heroine?
What happens when Pie cheats on Apple with Cherry?
What happens when Berry cheats on Straw with Blue?
What happens when High cheats on Smoke with Heroin?
What happens when Shoes cheat on Laces with Velcro?
What happens when the Paper cheats on the Pencil with the Pen?
Haha bye nak pegi cari tiket Harry Potter.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Sekadar Pandangan.
Assalamualaikum.
As usual, I don't even plan about what am I actually gonna write here, but today, saya rasa terpanggil untuk meluahkan apa yang terbuku dalam hati saya for the past few weeks.
First of all, saya bukanlah orang yang berpengetahuan luas dalam bidang politik dan secara jujur I don't even like to discuss or talk about it in public, apa lagi kalau nak post-post dalam blog macam ni, but then today I have to, since from what had happened yesterday has caused really big impact on our country Malaysia itself. I'm not here to debate with all of you about which side is good and which side is bad, NO. I'm here to clear my head from this thoughts that had been pushing me again & again from various political news & events which I indirectly followed by watching news on tv at 8 or reading through the newspapers.
Malaysia adalah sebuah negara yang berbilang kaum dan agama and this is one of that factor which had already became one of the attractiveness of this beautiful country. However at the same time, it also came with a big price to pay, di mana hakikatnya bukanlah mudah untuk memastikan sebuah negara yang terdiri daripada berbilang kaum ini untuk kekal aman & damai di samping semua kaum di dalamnya mencapai kestabilan dari semua aspek kehidupan tidak mengira pendidikan, ekonomi, politik dan sebagainya. Isu-isu dalam perkauman menjadi faktor berbahaya yang boleh menggugat keamanan negara seperti yang telah rakyat Malaysia ambil iktibar dari peristiwa 13 Mei.
Mungkin saya masih terlalu muda dan mentah untuk menilai sejauh mana bersihnya pendekatan yang diambil oleh pihak-pihak yang bertanggungjawab untuk memastikan kestabilan negara kita. Tetapi saya berasa sedikit terkilan menyedari ada di kalangan pemimpin & rakyat Malaysia sendiri yang somehow kelihatan begitu agresif dalam menegakkan kepercayaan politik masing-masing hingga menjejaskan keamanan dan persefahaman sesama rakyat Malaysia yang ingin kita kekalkan.
Saya tahu, pihak kerajaan tidak sempurna dalam menjalankan amanahnya, dan kelemahan mereka semakin hari semakin terlihat oleh masyarakat di luar sana. Pihak pembangkang pula dengan pemahamannya dan bagi saya, kedua-duanya memainkan peranan yang penting agar pemimpin-pemimpin yang sedia ada tidak terlampau selesa, lalai dari menunaikan tanggungjawab dan amanat yang telah diberikan oleh rakyat dan pada masa yang sama tidak mengambil kesempatan di atas privileges yang mereka miliki.
Jangan dilupa kepada pihak media, yang mana peranan mereka juga tidak harus diperlekehkan memandangkan mereka sepatutnya menyiarkan apa yang benar, yang sedang berlaku, mereka yang sepatutnya menjadi orang tengah yang tidak memihak kepada sesiapa bagi memastikan berita-berita yang disampaikan tidak berbaur fitnah yang boleh menimbulkan anasir-anasir & spekulasi yang salah di kalangan rakyat hingga menyebabkan kita rakyat Malaysia keliru dan tidak lagi menaruh kepercayaan yang tinggi terhadap media seperti dahulu. Kalau diingat kembali subjek Sejarah yang dipelajari ketika zaman persekolahan dulu, saya pasti semua sedia maklum bagaimana media cetak menjadi penyatu kepada rakyat dalam mengekalkan semangat untuk mencapai kemerdekaan Tanah Melayu. Oleh itu media sepatutnya mengambil sejarah sebagi contoh instead of menumpukan fokus mereka untuk menjadi akhbar terhangat atau melariskan jualan mereka semata-mata.
Rakyat zaman sekarang harus berhati-hati dalam cuba mentafsir kebenaran dalam dunia politik negara kita. Tiga pihak di atas, semua tidak sempurna perjuangannya. Apa yang saya cuba nyatakan di sini, dalam setiap organisasi itu, susah untuk kita temui organisasi yang mana semua orang di dalamnya, 100% memperjuangkan apa yang baik yang boleh dinikmati rakyat tanpa mengambil kira kepentingan diri sendiri, kerana apa yang saya nampak, rata-ratanya menggunakan politik sebagai platform untuk merebut kuasa dan memperolehi kekayaan melalui jalan singkat. Bila berkempen pelbagai janji ditabur tapi bila sudah berada di atas kebanyakannya lupa menunaikan janji-janji mereka. Sedangkan kita orang biasa yang tidak terpikul oleh tanggungjawab memerintah negara ini pun kadang-kadang terlupa menunaikan janji-janji kita kepada Allah S.W.T. apatah lagi janji mereka sesama manusia.
Justeru dalam memilih pemimpin, ia bukanlah mudah, tetapi secara amnya, kita memilih mereka yang mereka yang terpelihara akhlaknya, yang bijak & mampu menguruskan negara dgn baik dan bersederhana dalam semua perkara. Bagi yang beragama Islam, perjuangan mereka haruslah mengambil kira pencapaian di dunia dan di akhirat. Kedua-dua ini harus seimbang, bagi memastikan Islam terus maju dan tidak tertinggal di belakang.
Berbalik kepada isu keamanan tadi. Saya sedih melihat masih ada di kalangan rakyat kita tak kiralah apa agama dan bangsa sekalipun, masih berniat menimbulkan kekacauan di tanah air sendiri. Kita adalah rakyat yang bertamadun dan berpendidikan, mengapa masih tidak mampu memilih cara penyelesaian yang lebih baik instead of berkumpul dan berarak di jalan? Kalau dulu saya tengok di kaca tv demonstrasi hanya berlaku di negara-negara luar, tetapi sekarang Malaysia yang setelah sekian lama aman dan sunyi dari demonstrasi jalanan, kini menjadi salah satu daripadanya, tahniah kepada segelintir rakyat Malaysia sendiri yang kononnya bertujuan untuk menegakkan hak mereka.
Apa yang kita dapat daripada demonstrasi jalanan? Please enlighten me adakah ia automatically mengubah negara kita menjadi negara yang politiknya bersih seratus peratus? Kita berdemontsrasi di jalan or di stadium, adakah anda bermusyawwarah berdiskusi mengenai jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik? Dan apabila ada pihak yang mengatakan kempen semalam berjaya, saya masih belum mampu melihat rasionalnya pendekatan tersebut. Alhamdulillah, Sultan Mizan juga telah memberikan pendapat yang selama ini saya nanti-nantikan, yang mana perhimpunan seperti itu hanya banyak memberikan kesan negatif terhadap negara kerana percayalah, dalam kekalutan ini pasti ada pihak yang akan cuba mengambil kesempatan terhadap situasi genting yang sedang berlaku di negara kita, and at the same time this is as a reminder to the existing government to realize that now is the time to work hard to make changes and improvement.
Kita sebagai rakyat, janganlah mudah terpedaya dengan agenda-agenda pihak tertentu yang meracuni fikiran rakyat untuk mencapai kepentingan diri sendiri. Jangan diingat bila kita dah merdeka, tidak ada pihak-pihak luar yang terus-menerus ingin mencuba nasib memperlihatkan kelemahan negara kita agar mereka dapat menjajah kembali dan mengeksploitasi negara kita. Tidak semua parti, pemimpin di dalamnya semua baik atau jahat. Dalam setiap parti itu ada yang baiknya, dan apa yang perlu kita sebagai rakyat Malaysia perlukan, adalah ketelusan dan kebijaksanaan dalam memilih, bagi memastikan apa yang kita ada tidak tergadai di kemudian hari. Walaupun tujuan asal BERSIH 2.0 yang dinyatakan adalah untuk politik yang bersih tanpa sebarang penipuan, namun jalan pendekatannya dengan mengadakan perhimpunan seperti itu bukanlah yang seharusnya diambil.
Saya berdoa pada Allah agar kita semua sentiasa dilindunginya, semoga negara kita tidak ditimpa malapetaka dan agar kita sentiasa diberikan petunjuknya dalam membuat setiap pilihan & keputusan dalam kehidupan kita. Semoga negara kita aman sentiasa, Insya-Allah.
As usual, I don't even plan about what am I actually gonna write here, but today, saya rasa terpanggil untuk meluahkan apa yang terbuku dalam hati saya for the past few weeks.
First of all, saya bukanlah orang yang berpengetahuan luas dalam bidang politik dan secara jujur I don't even like to discuss or talk about it in public, apa lagi kalau nak post-post dalam blog macam ni, but then today I have to, since from what had happened yesterday has caused really big impact on our country Malaysia itself. I'm not here to debate with all of you about which side is good and which side is bad, NO. I'm here to clear my head from this thoughts that had been pushing me again & again from various political news & events which I indirectly followed by watching news on tv at 8 or reading through the newspapers.
Malaysia adalah sebuah negara yang berbilang kaum dan agama and this is one of that factor which had already became one of the attractiveness of this beautiful country. However at the same time, it also came with a big price to pay, di mana hakikatnya bukanlah mudah untuk memastikan sebuah negara yang terdiri daripada berbilang kaum ini untuk kekal aman & damai di samping semua kaum di dalamnya mencapai kestabilan dari semua aspek kehidupan tidak mengira pendidikan, ekonomi, politik dan sebagainya. Isu-isu dalam perkauman menjadi faktor berbahaya yang boleh menggugat keamanan negara seperti yang telah rakyat Malaysia ambil iktibar dari peristiwa 13 Mei.
Mungkin saya masih terlalu muda dan mentah untuk menilai sejauh mana bersihnya pendekatan yang diambil oleh pihak-pihak yang bertanggungjawab untuk memastikan kestabilan negara kita. Tetapi saya berasa sedikit terkilan menyedari ada di kalangan pemimpin & rakyat Malaysia sendiri yang somehow kelihatan begitu agresif dalam menegakkan kepercayaan politik masing-masing hingga menjejaskan keamanan dan persefahaman sesama rakyat Malaysia yang ingin kita kekalkan.
Saya tahu, pihak kerajaan tidak sempurna dalam menjalankan amanahnya, dan kelemahan mereka semakin hari semakin terlihat oleh masyarakat di luar sana. Pihak pembangkang pula dengan pemahamannya dan bagi saya, kedua-duanya memainkan peranan yang penting agar pemimpin-pemimpin yang sedia ada tidak terlampau selesa, lalai dari menunaikan tanggungjawab dan amanat yang telah diberikan oleh rakyat dan pada masa yang sama tidak mengambil kesempatan di atas privileges yang mereka miliki.
Jangan dilupa kepada pihak media, yang mana peranan mereka juga tidak harus diperlekehkan memandangkan mereka sepatutnya menyiarkan apa yang benar, yang sedang berlaku, mereka yang sepatutnya menjadi orang tengah yang tidak memihak kepada sesiapa bagi memastikan berita-berita yang disampaikan tidak berbaur fitnah yang boleh menimbulkan anasir-anasir & spekulasi yang salah di kalangan rakyat hingga menyebabkan kita rakyat Malaysia keliru dan tidak lagi menaruh kepercayaan yang tinggi terhadap media seperti dahulu. Kalau diingat kembali subjek Sejarah yang dipelajari ketika zaman persekolahan dulu, saya pasti semua sedia maklum bagaimana media cetak menjadi penyatu kepada rakyat dalam mengekalkan semangat untuk mencapai kemerdekaan Tanah Melayu. Oleh itu media sepatutnya mengambil sejarah sebagi contoh instead of menumpukan fokus mereka untuk menjadi akhbar terhangat atau melariskan jualan mereka semata-mata.
Rakyat zaman sekarang harus berhati-hati dalam cuba mentafsir kebenaran dalam dunia politik negara kita. Tiga pihak di atas, semua tidak sempurna perjuangannya. Apa yang saya cuba nyatakan di sini, dalam setiap organisasi itu, susah untuk kita temui organisasi yang mana semua orang di dalamnya, 100% memperjuangkan apa yang baik yang boleh dinikmati rakyat tanpa mengambil kira kepentingan diri sendiri, kerana apa yang saya nampak, rata-ratanya menggunakan politik sebagai platform untuk merebut kuasa dan memperolehi kekayaan melalui jalan singkat. Bila berkempen pelbagai janji ditabur tapi bila sudah berada di atas kebanyakannya lupa menunaikan janji-janji mereka. Sedangkan kita orang biasa yang tidak terpikul oleh tanggungjawab memerintah negara ini pun kadang-kadang terlupa menunaikan janji-janji kita kepada Allah S.W.T. apatah lagi janji mereka sesama manusia.
Justeru dalam memilih pemimpin, ia bukanlah mudah, tetapi secara amnya, kita memilih mereka yang mereka yang terpelihara akhlaknya, yang bijak & mampu menguruskan negara dgn baik dan bersederhana dalam semua perkara. Bagi yang beragama Islam, perjuangan mereka haruslah mengambil kira pencapaian di dunia dan di akhirat. Kedua-dua ini harus seimbang, bagi memastikan Islam terus maju dan tidak tertinggal di belakang.
Berbalik kepada isu keamanan tadi. Saya sedih melihat masih ada di kalangan rakyat kita tak kiralah apa agama dan bangsa sekalipun, masih berniat menimbulkan kekacauan di tanah air sendiri. Kita adalah rakyat yang bertamadun dan berpendidikan, mengapa masih tidak mampu memilih cara penyelesaian yang lebih baik instead of berkumpul dan berarak di jalan? Kalau dulu saya tengok di kaca tv demonstrasi hanya berlaku di negara-negara luar, tetapi sekarang Malaysia yang setelah sekian lama aman dan sunyi dari demonstrasi jalanan, kini menjadi salah satu daripadanya, tahniah kepada segelintir rakyat Malaysia sendiri yang kononnya bertujuan untuk menegakkan hak mereka.
Apa yang kita dapat daripada demonstrasi jalanan? Please enlighten me adakah ia automatically mengubah negara kita menjadi negara yang politiknya bersih seratus peratus? Kita berdemontsrasi di jalan or di stadium, adakah anda bermusyawwarah berdiskusi mengenai jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik? Dan apabila ada pihak yang mengatakan kempen semalam berjaya, saya masih belum mampu melihat rasionalnya pendekatan tersebut. Alhamdulillah, Sultan Mizan juga telah memberikan pendapat yang selama ini saya nanti-nantikan, yang mana perhimpunan seperti itu hanya banyak memberikan kesan negatif terhadap negara kerana percayalah, dalam kekalutan ini pasti ada pihak yang akan cuba mengambil kesempatan terhadap situasi genting yang sedang berlaku di negara kita, and at the same time this is as a reminder to the existing government to realize that now is the time to work hard to make changes and improvement.
Kita sebagai rakyat, janganlah mudah terpedaya dengan agenda-agenda pihak tertentu yang meracuni fikiran rakyat untuk mencapai kepentingan diri sendiri. Jangan diingat bila kita dah merdeka, tidak ada pihak-pihak luar yang terus-menerus ingin mencuba nasib memperlihatkan kelemahan negara kita agar mereka dapat menjajah kembali dan mengeksploitasi negara kita. Tidak semua parti, pemimpin di dalamnya semua baik atau jahat. Dalam setiap parti itu ada yang baiknya, dan apa yang perlu kita sebagai rakyat Malaysia perlukan, adalah ketelusan dan kebijaksanaan dalam memilih, bagi memastikan apa yang kita ada tidak tergadai di kemudian hari. Walaupun tujuan asal BERSIH 2.0 yang dinyatakan adalah untuk politik yang bersih tanpa sebarang penipuan, namun jalan pendekatannya dengan mengadakan perhimpunan seperti itu bukanlah yang seharusnya diambil.
Saya berdoa pada Allah agar kita semua sentiasa dilindunginya, semoga negara kita tidak ditimpa malapetaka dan agar kita sentiasa diberikan petunjuknya dalam membuat setiap pilihan & keputusan dalam kehidupan kita. Semoga negara kita aman sentiasa, Insya-Allah.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Updates
Hi.
Here I am again, sitting in front of the laptop trying to figure out what are words appropriately to be said. But then it always end up the same, where when there are too many things you wanted to say and you just don't know where to start and which one to begin with, you just leave it blank.
But today I'll not waste this precious opportunity of having a laptop that owned by my friend, since my laptop is currently undergoing some sort of middle age crisis, if it is a female you can say that its having the aura of upcoming menopause, if it is a male then it might be some old man diseases. Whatever it is I know that its gonna cost me a lot.
Time flies so fast and now we are already in the end of June. Next week its gonna be my fourth week since I have been working, and to be completely honest, I'm still not sure about how am I doing . On my first day I was very nervous, that my voice is like stuck in my throat, and I cannot even think about what are the words that am I suppose to say, and I looked like completely stupid. -.-" I cannot even say "Nice to meet you too." when they shook my hands.
Its hard to act normal when you are dealing with changes that took place in your life. I'm working with mostly people in the age of 30 and 40++. Worst, I'm the only intern in the department, so you can imagine how it changed me a lot, I became very quiet and weird. I can't believe I am weird. I did not feel confident, because it needs a different way to mingle with them, not like with young people at your same age where you can just talk about anything else. With them, manners, is the key. So yes its quite difficult at the first time, but now after three weeks I think I'm already get used to it. They are very strict when it comes to work matters, I had been lectured by one of the staff like two to three times about to remember everything that had been taught, and when she talked its like mcm nak marah, so hmmm sabar jela. That was one of them, the others has been very kind to me and I hope that everyday things there will be better and easier for me to handle.
What else? Oh my English sucks. I can only speak the basic and I think I have a problem of listening, you see sometimes when they talk, I couldn't catch the words being said, and I was like a dumb trying to understand those words that came out of their mouth. Manglish had been my favorite and now I'm dealing with the problem of lack vocabulary in my brain. Now the best solution is to buy some books and read it, not just read, understand it word by word, oh God I cannot believe I'm still way too far from everything.
What am I good at? I don't even know. But this is not the time for me to quit, its a time for me to take it as challenges. I will try my best and at the same time pray to God to give me the strength and make things more easier for me to get through.
Good news! Gonna get my paycheck this upcoming week, hihi. and yesterday was my friend's wedding, Fafa. Congratulations and I wish you happily ever after. Until then, see you guys again in my next post, if only I have an idea on what to post.
Bye.
Here I am again, sitting in front of the laptop trying to figure out what are words appropriately to be said. But then it always end up the same, where when there are too many things you wanted to say and you just don't know where to start and which one to begin with, you just leave it blank.
But today I'll not waste this precious opportunity of having a laptop that owned by my friend, since my laptop is currently undergoing some sort of middle age crisis, if it is a female you can say that its having the aura of upcoming menopause, if it is a male then it might be some old man diseases. Whatever it is I know that its gonna cost me a lot.
Time flies so fast and now we are already in the end of June. Next week its gonna be my fourth week since I have been working, and to be completely honest, I'm still not sure about how am I doing . On my first day I was very nervous, that my voice is like stuck in my throat, and I cannot even think about what are the words that am I suppose to say, and I looked like completely stupid. -.-" I cannot even say "Nice to meet you too." when they shook my hands.
Its hard to act normal when you are dealing with changes that took place in your life. I'm working with mostly people in the age of 30 and 40++. Worst, I'm the only intern in the department, so you can imagine how it changed me a lot, I became very quiet and weird. I can't believe I am weird. I did not feel confident, because it needs a different way to mingle with them, not like with young people at your same age where you can just talk about anything else. With them, manners, is the key. So yes its quite difficult at the first time, but now after three weeks I think I'm already get used to it. They are very strict when it comes to work matters, I had been lectured by one of the staff like two to three times about to remember everything that had been taught, and when she talked its like mcm nak marah, so hmmm sabar jela. That was one of them, the others has been very kind to me and I hope that everyday things there will be better and easier for me to handle.
What else? Oh my English sucks. I can only speak the basic and I think I have a problem of listening, you see sometimes when they talk, I couldn't catch the words being said, and I was like a dumb trying to understand those words that came out of their mouth. Manglish had been my favorite and now I'm dealing with the problem of lack vocabulary in my brain. Now the best solution is to buy some books and read it, not just read, understand it word by word, oh God I cannot believe I'm still way too far from everything.
What am I good at? I don't even know. But this is not the time for me to quit, its a time for me to take it as challenges. I will try my best and at the same time pray to God to give me the strength and make things more easier for me to get through.
Good news! Gonna get my paycheck this upcoming week, hihi. and yesterday was my friend's wedding, Fafa. Congratulations and I wish you happily ever after. Until then, see you guys again in my next post, if only I have an idea on what to post.
Bye.
Friday, May 27, 2011
kita rasa
Hai.
Saya dah dekat Shah Alam. Okay nak tambah list dlm percutian sedih ni, laptop saya tetiba rosak. Entah apa la penyakit dia, on kejap lps tu bebal dia off sendiri. so terpaksa lah, kita online pakai laptop org.
Lpstu kita x boleh dah nak dgr lagu-lagu yg kita suka byk-byk kali puas-puas mcm dulu. Mentang-mentangla kita dah nak start kerja, laptop kita terus nk menguji keimanan kita tau. Tapi kita tetap bertekad, walau segedik mana pun laptop kita buat hal, kita taknak membazir beli laptop baru. nanti kita cari la alternative lain yg bole kita amik, kita beli ipad ke, eh mmg tak lah.hihi
Kita nervous. Sb kita kena start kerja sorang-sorang. Tapi takpelah. Kita redha.
Lpstu menambahkan lagi kenervousan kita potong rambut kita yg kembang setaman tu time kita balik kedah, kita potong sb ada budak kecik tegur kita dia kata mcm ni "kenapa rambut abg ni besar?" kita mcm nak sumbat mulut dia dgn tiga ketul ubi kentang fresh tapi kita malas nak gaduh-gaduh. End up rambut kita habis dipotong mcm shaolin dah. kalau perempuan rambut x lawa dia bole cover pakai tudung bole tak kita nak cover pakai lebai?
Lastly, lagu ni la apa yg kita rasa sekarang:
Bye.
Saya dah dekat Shah Alam. Okay nak tambah list dlm percutian sedih ni, laptop saya tetiba rosak. Entah apa la penyakit dia, on kejap lps tu bebal dia off sendiri. so terpaksa lah, kita online pakai laptop org.
Lpstu kita x boleh dah nak dgr lagu-lagu yg kita suka byk-byk kali puas-puas mcm dulu. Mentang-mentangla kita dah nak start kerja, laptop kita terus nk menguji keimanan kita tau. Tapi kita tetap bertekad, walau segedik mana pun laptop kita buat hal, kita taknak membazir beli laptop baru. nanti kita cari la alternative lain yg bole kita amik, kita beli ipad ke, eh mmg tak lah.hihi
Kita nervous. Sb kita kena start kerja sorang-sorang. Tapi takpelah. Kita redha.
Lpstu menambahkan lagi kenervousan kita potong rambut kita yg kembang setaman tu time kita balik kedah, kita potong sb ada budak kecik tegur kita dia kata mcm ni "kenapa rambut abg ni besar?" kita mcm nak sumbat mulut dia dgn tiga ketul ubi kentang fresh tapi kita malas nak gaduh-gaduh. End up rambut kita habis dipotong mcm shaolin dah. kalau perempuan rambut x lawa dia bole cover pakai tudung bole tak kita nak cover pakai lebai?
Lastly, lagu ni la apa yg kita rasa sekarang:
Bye.
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