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Hi.

Here I am again, sitting in front of the laptop trying to figure out what are words appropriately to be said. But then it always end up the same, where when there are too many things you wanted to say and you just don't know where to start and which one to begin with, you just leave it blank.

But today I'll not waste this precious opportunity of having a laptop that owned by my friend, since my laptop is currently undergoing some sort of middle age crisis, if it is a female you can say that its having the aura of upcoming menopause,  if it is a male then it might be some old man diseases. Whatever it is I know that its gonna cost me a lot.

Time flies so fast and now we are already in the end of June. Next week its gonna be my fourth week since I have been working, and to be completely honest, I'm still not sure about how am I doing . On my first day I was very nervous, that my voice is like stuck in my throat, and I cannot even think about what are the words that am I suppose to say, and I looked like completely stupid. -.-" I cannot even say "Nice to meet you too." when they shook my hands.

Its hard to act normal when you are dealing with changes that took place in your life. I'm working with mostly people in the age of 30 and 40++. Worst, I'm the only intern in the department, so you can imagine how it changed me a lot, I became very quiet and weird. I can't believe I am weird. I did not feel confident, because it needs a different way to mingle with them, not like with young people at your same age where you can just talk about anything else.  With them, manners, is the key. So yes its quite difficult at the first time, but now after three weeks I think I'm already get used to it. They are very strict when it comes to work matters, I had been lectured by one of the staff like two to three times about to remember everything that had been taught, and when she talked its like mcm nak marah, so hmmm sabar jela. That was one of them, the others has been very kind to me and I hope that everyday things there will be better and easier for me to handle.

What else? Oh my English sucks. I can only speak the basic and I think I have a problem of listening, you see sometimes when they talk, I couldn't catch the words being said, and I was like a dumb trying to understand those words that came out of their mouth. Manglish had been my favorite and now I'm dealing with the problem of lack vocabulary in my brain. Now the best solution is to buy some books and read it, not just read, understand it word by word, oh God I cannot believe I'm still way too far from everything.

What am I good at? I don't even know. But this is not the time for me to quit, its a time for me to take it as challenges. I will try my best and at the same time pray to God to give me the strength and make things more easier for me to get through.

Good news! Gonna get my paycheck this upcoming week, hihi. and yesterday was my friend's wedding, Fafa. Congratulations and I wish you happily ever after. Until then, see you guys again in my next post, if only I have  an idea on what to post.

Bye.