Hari tu saya tweet, saya cakap saya tak sabar nak berblogging balik. Sebab so many stories to be told, so many things to be explained. Saya nak cerita pasal internship 9 bulan yang entah berapa kali pejam celik mata ja dah nak habis, kalau org pregnant dah nak siap dah anak dia tunggu masa nak keluar dari perut. Bukan saya berlagak dgn blogspot, tapi sebab laptop rosak and duit tengah keing nak beli laptop baru, org dgr intern exxonmobil duit byk yes it sounds like one but the real thing is, that money not gonna sits forever in the bank.
I just got back from Sabah, and I don't wanna post about it now, kalau Jasmin Anis akak Wild Thoughts ada random alphabet post series dia, saya pun ada produk buatan tempatan saya. Im gonna post about drama drama cuti Sabah saya through Sabah Trip punya post nanti, from #Day 1 up to #Day 5.
Oh rasa mcm nak cerita pasal dinner jugak. Even tak menang best dress award ths time tapi ada ja benda nak cerita sebenarnya. Tapi kan sekarang rasa nak fokus dulu dekat benda yang paling terasa di hati di malam bulan mengambang penuh ni ( if korang peasan bulan cantik gila penuh langit terang benderang ). Nak cerita sedih sob sob sob.
Macam mana nak cakap ni in a proper way, saya tak tau. Tapi saya tau, life after this for me is never gonna be the same again, things will never be in a way that it used to be before.
Dulu masa mula-mula kena sewa rumah, bkn main lagi saya membantah nak masuk rumah ni, sb saya tak kenal and rapat dgn org yg bakal menjadi housemate, and if pikir on diorg punya side, mcm awkward gila tak penah kenal tiba tiba serumah confirm awkward mcm gampang. Tapi tu dulu masa zaman tak kenal maka tak cinta, sekaran zaman cinta itu buta. Saya tau dah 2 3 kali before ni saya post hati tak senang terbayang mcm mana bila semua dah habis belajar and keluar tinggal rumah ni?
I was imagining how fun it could be if all of us could stay here for little bit longer, I was dreaming about we still be here through our working days till the time all of us can afford to buy a house and wanna get married to start a family. Tinggi angan - angan tu, saya tau. Tapi tak pernah saya ras masa cukup pantas untuk memotong angan -angan saya, cewah ayat.
For the past 4 years, I've been waking up in the morning seeing their faces first in the morning, had a breakfast together, lunch dinner supper late supper, kau rasa kau tak rindu ke baring ramai ramai tengok movie sama sama tambah cerita hantu? Ku rasa tak rindu ke keluar sama sama dulu celebrate birthday org tu la org ini la ramai ramai, gila gampang kalau aku tak kesah psl semua tu kan.
Lagi terasa lps baru balik trip, haih Tuhan je tau. Am I the only one who don't feel to let it go? But we have been fighting for this house quite a long time. Maybe I'm the only one who want to be here and work here, starting my career here, tapi betol lah semua org rasa tak sama. And rezeki semua org berbeza-bza.
Apa apa pun aku doa hopefully there still chances for us to stay together, because the truth is, Im not gonna let this house go.
Penat pikir, rasa dah kena stop berangan kot.
Bye.
