Ini Bukan Post Emo.

When you try your best but you don't succeed (Checked,)
When you get what you want but not what you need (tak tau nk ckp tak penah rasa lagi)
When you feel so tired but you can't asleep(ni jadi semalam,tp bkn smlm ja.byk kali dh)
Stuck in reverse.
When the tears come streaming down your face(last time menangis masa cuti,don't ask me why)
When you lose something that you can't replace (belum jadi lagi,sb setakat ni yg hilang boleh aja diganti lagi)
When you love someone then it goes a waste(-.-")
COULD IT BE WORST???

I had quiz today, on Finance (MAF). Its awful. Yes maybe I should let go of that because it already happen, but yet, no. I'm not. I was ready to write something on the empty paper but after I read the question my brain couldn't find the answer. BLANK. My brain was BLANK. My answer sheet BLANK. I felt stupid. T_T

Its only a quiz. Maybe I'm a little bit carried away by what happened, but since then, I was thinking, what am I good at? I mean I'm 21 years old, shouldn't I be good at something? Something useful, something that is REAL KNOWLEDGE? I'm not freaking out. Its just that I have a lot in my mind right now. I messed up. Screw me. And now keep on blaming myself because I didn't know what else to do. I'm not a richie wealthy good looking cool mr hot stuff guy who drive a sports car to class, and I'm also not a sort of pelajar cemerlang type who sponsored by a scholar. I'm not even good at any sports. I'm not good in remembering things too. Pity me.

See? Its only a quiz, but look where it took me. Now I'm like comparing myself with what they other people have. But at one point I begin to think, its not good to keep on complaining. Yes, I don't have lots of money, I'm still struggling to be excellent in my studies, and judging from the quiz that I couldn't answer, I felt like I'm wasting everything. My family's hope, my parents money. When they gave you a car it should be better, better results, better achievement. But look at me, I'm getting nowhere. I felt guilty to mama & abah. I'm so sorry. T_T. Dah la x kaya lps tu x pandai. It breaks my heart you know. Nangis lagi. T_T

I should stop complaining about what I didn't have, and starts appreciate more on what I have. I shall put more effort, I believe there is hikmah on everything that happens. Who knows, from all bad things happen, maybe it will lead a way for good things to come, someday.

To mama & abah, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, & I MISS YOU.....:((

TTYL.